Tina Lately

what has been going on lately? Well…

My laptop has failed me once again. The audio output is not working so I cannot watch music videos! :’(. This is truly tragic. Now I have to listen to my ipod and sync it to the soundless Youtube videos. I’ve gotten very good at lip-reading because I use that to sync the music and lyrics together.

My significant other left Cali for Japan today and he won’t be back until mid-June. He is staying up in Norcal until AUGUST. :< I cried. I miss him already. So I guess I will use this summer for my artwork.

I got a job! My financial prayers have been heard! I got a job at school working with international students, and I am excited! It’s pretty low maintenance job and I hope I love working there!

I met a fellow art student this past semester who loves costumes as much as I do, so we are collaborating on a project for a children’s book. I can’t say what story we are working on yet, but it will take all summer to develop. I’ll show it when we are finished!

The reason who I am trying to get two jobs this summer is because I am going to London in 2013! My darling, Cynthia, spent this past semester in Paris, and she has inspired me to travel and study abroad. I am going to work my ass off for Central Saint Martins this summer. The last thing I want is to take out loans that will put my parents into further debt, so I will have to pay for everything.

I cannot believe that I am saying this but i really cannot wait until I graduate. I saw how happy my friends were at their own graduation ceremonies and I just want to be genuinely happy too! But I also don’t want to graduate because I want to acquire all the skills in art! I still need to take Metal and Weaving!

Ok that’s it for now. I am pretty boring. I don’t have any drama because I am not some dumb ho messing life up for errrrr-one. PEACE.

Someone read my mind!

(Source: brotips)

I’m pretty proud of myself this year. I usually don’t rely on other people to help me because I want to see how far I get using my own abilities. I have too much pride, but I also have a lot of faith. I know what I am capable of and I don’t like depending on other people to make my dreams come true. So I don’t accept help unless I genuinely need it, and I do not expect anything to be handed. All of my jobs, I did the research and got them. I didn’t ask for a friend to hook me up. I didn’t ask anyone to find me a job. All of my projects and opportunities, I got them and excelled because I didn’t give up. I kept working, worked around it, made mistakes, found solutions, kept trying until they were perfect. I don’t rely on other people because in the end, I can truly call success my own. I can say that I earned it.

"Education is the passport to the future, for tomorrow belongs to those who prepare for it today."

"Just for today
Do not get angry
Do not worry
Be thankful
Work hard
Be kind to others"

(Source: quote-book)

I deserve this. I didn’t sleep. I didn’t eat. I got laryngitis. I didn’t party. I didn’t skip class. I gave up everything of comfort for the sake of my art making. I am so proud of myself and of the work I produced. I worked endlessly to perfect my assignments. I am so tired. I am burnt out, but I earned this. I met some of the greatest people this semester who shared the same passion for art making. We understood what perfection meant and that meant struggling, staying late at the studios, sleeping very little, leaving everything else behind, and following our instincts. I am exhausted but I have earned this.

I removed so much of myself that I have been conditioned to loathe everyone and everything on this planet. But on a day like this, when I get to sketch and listen to Uyama Hiroto, DJ Okawari or Nujabes, I don’t feel hopeless.

I love that during finals weeks when I have five final projects to put in my portfolio and EVERYONE wants to bug me. Piss off!

Burnt out from art projects. How do I relax? Read about my favorite designers: McQueen, Gaultier, Gallliano. Lalalallalala. I am cured.

I am actually more excited for my friends who got in the BFA Illustration/Animation Program than they are! Bahaha, just kidding. I am positive that they are happier and more excited than I am, but I am so happy that they got accepted! I nearly broke my toenail running to tell M. that she needed to see the list. ( She got accepted but had no idea that she was, so I dragged her to see it herself.) All of them were accepted. They are so talented and creative! I wish I were still doing Illustration with them and goofing off and laughing our asses off about dumb ideas. I miss them so much and I truly wish them the best of luck in the BFA. Gawd, they make me so proud! I am so proud to have such talented friends! All those late night hours at the lab, editing, finishing, rendering are finally over!

Tomorrow is my BFA submission for Fiber. no big deal. Actually, it’s not a big deal to anyone, because Fiber is low key and sorta outcasted from the art program but it is a HUGE deal to me. MONUMENTAL. I really want this and I am not doing this because my friends are doing it. I am doing this because I actually love working with fiber sculpture and fabrics. I hope I get in. I really want to get in this program.

Watching “Shakespeare in Love,” makes me want to read the works of Shakespeare, Keats, Thoreau and Whitman! Gahhh great film